I used to cut myself, it was the only way I could let the overwhelming pain flow from my body, the physical pain releasing the emotional pain. I used to do it in places no one would ever see along my inner thighs and my rib cage under my arms. One day I cut to deep and the bleeding was too much. I didn’t go to the hospital I didn’t want them to think I tried to kill myself. I was able to make the bleeding stop, and in that moment, I realised all of it had to stop. If I didn’t stop this cutting even that would begin to grow numb, and soon I would need to cut deeper and deeper, and maybe next time I wouldn’t be able to stop the bleeding. Or even worse I wouldn’t want to stop the bleeding. I’m not going to lie, it wasn’t easy and sometimes still when I feel emotionally frustrated I want the run a knife along my skin. But I don’t. I stop, because there are better ways to deal with emotions, and I deserve those better ways. I see that now.

One of my favorite bag designers is retiring some amazing designs including my favorite the Lots of Pockets Tote. She has put all of these patterns on sale for 3 dollars, which is a steal really. Keyka Lou Patterns are easy to follow and adapt if that’s your choice(I used the Lots Of Pocket tote as a base for my laptop bag). For those of you who have Etsy/Artfire stores or sell at craft stalls all of Keyka Lou’s Patterns include the following liscense :

Pouches made using this pattern can be sold in your own online store, local boutiques, craft fairs, etc. Start your own sewing business today! Please offer Keyka Lou design credit in written descriptions.

So within a few minutes you could easily be on your way to having some great new things for your shop. The patterns print well, include lots of photos, and come out looking great in the end. You only have 3 days to grab up these before they are gone for good. So go buy now!

*Yes I know it’s been awhile I promise I will do a real post soon.

]]> http://brooklynnemichelle.com/2011/12/29/keyka-lou-retirement-sale/feed/ 0 http://brooklynnemichelle.com/2011/11/25/vote/ http://brooklynnemichelle.com/2011/11/25/vote/#comments Thu, 24 Nov 2011 22:32:30 +0000 Brooklynne http://brooklynnemichelle.com/?p=945 Tomorrow there is an election in NZ. I beg of you go out and VOTE. I don’t even care who you vote for just do it!

As for me I’m going to make history…

Over the past year I have had the amazing chance to get to know Mojo, and the privilege to call her my friend. I sit here now and am slightly surprised that at one time she completely terrified me. When I first met her at the Green Party AGM in 2009 she was such a strong, passionate, and outspoken woman I couldn’t help be completely intimidated.

I will be honest when I first met her I held a lot of assumptions about how she would be since she was deaf. Within a few short minutes though Mojo had completely broken through all those assumptions. She didn’t let anyone walk, or talk over her, her disability wasn’t holding her back that was for sure. The more time I spent around her the more I saw what an amazing and persuasive speaker she is, her passion for so many topics, and her love for her daughters(who are amazing women in their own rights)

I have also unfortunately heard some really inane and stupid reasons why she isn’t “suitable” for parliament, all them focused on her disability.  One of the key one’s I’ve heard is that Parliament isn’t set up for a deaf Member of Parliament, which is just ignorant and lazy excuse. If we let excuses like this effect our everyday there would be no wheelchair ramps anywhere, our cross walks wouldn’t be accessible to the blind, and allergy information wouldn’t be on food packets. Parliament isn’t set up for a deaf person? Then let’s change that.

I think it is about time we had a Member of Parliament who truly understands what it’s like to be disabled in Society today. One who understands that the disabled community of New Zealand are the most disadvantaged community.

I’m being unfair to Mojo though by just highlighting what she would do for the Disabled Community, for she is very knowledgeable and eloquent on many key Green Party issues. Her passions also include the Impact the Dairy Industry has on our environment and influences on Climate Change.

As a woman with a disability, and is concern by the state of our environment and our world, I cannot think of anyone better to represent me in parliament than Mojo Mathers.

At number 14 on the List the Green Party would need to get just over 12% for her to make it into parliament and I think this is a real possibility this election; and my vote will be cast in her favour.

Please don’t just take my word for it though, here are some great links on Mojo and her complete awesomeness:

Mojo Mathers Green Party Official Page

News Wire article on Mojo

Stuff article on Mojo

-Gaming, I’m starting a Primetime Adventures Game soon AND plotting to GM a Monster Of The Week game. one is Sci-Fi and the other Urban Fantasy… WOOT!

-Matte Nail Polish I’ve been addicted to it lately… love the look, so flat and so neat.

-LARPing I have one tomorrow that includes contacts that I’m having the hardest time getting into my eyes….

-finally this song lately has been stuck in my head…

honorable mentions:

-Comics (Kill Shakespeare is a personal Favorite I discovered)

-Glee

-Dexter

-Getting to watch buffy, supernatural, xfiles, etc for research.

-My hair being longer than I realize which is exciting!